Just got back from Sandakan today. Somehow sometimes I resent to update when there's nothing much to be written, or perhaps too tired to do so.
It's amazing how so many things can happen in a spilt second. It's even more surprising when your mind find itself to adapt so quickly to sudden changes that pops out of no where even though it was expected earlier.
When things turns out the way you've been expecting it, but not anticipating it, you know how you would feel after it happened but there are times when it turns out not as bad as you thought it would be or perhaps even worse.?
It's rather misleading because it's like your earlier expectations have warned you earlier of what you would feel, but when the true feelings steps in and you can't possibly lie to yourself that your assumptions had not influence what you're feeling now.?
Especially if it doesn't feel as strong or as much as you've thought, or lesser. Would you doubt is that your actual inner feelings, or you're just a hypocrite to yourself or perhaps, you're really not feeling it.?