Monday, April 30, 2007

In KLIA now.

Am going home in a bit. A new thought had gotten me, perhaps I should have a blog celibacy (or perhaps just stop writing blue stuff? ) for maybe perhaps a month.? Instead of completely shutting my three year old baby down. Even though it would be a rather boring episode, after all, I have two months to kill. And would try my best to enjoy the murder process.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Wikie and googie....

Remember when lecturers gave a bunch of reason why not to copy paste information from the net directly and hand it in as our masterpiece? And how they try to discouraged us from using the web as our only sole source for any assignments or research work.?

Which at the end is what we always do.?

But how could we possibly forget that? They never fail to remind us every single time we're given work to do. But of course they do encouraged you to look for information, just don't completely rely on the net because you don't know who wrote it and its authenticity is doubtful. DUH..

"You can googled it up, but it's much better and more trustworthy to go and look for it in the library. You do know we have the richest library in the region.?"

(Lecturers just never got tired of promoting where they're working don't they.? I don't know, I'm not actually sick of it, I'm more like, developing an immunity towards these praises) DUH..

It's ridiculously funny when I was trying hard to be a good student and surf the net for extra information regarding some lecture notes and at the same time oddly impressed with some bombastic vocabulary used in those slides. Coming out from someone who can't even speak well enough to teach, it's rather impressive or should I say, suspicious.?

You see, I'm not saying their English sucks and I can't make a word of what they're actually talking about. I dare not say so because I ain't qualified nor am I anyone at all to judge. I was just curious because I thought that its rather big and surprising when someone is practically running extremely fast in a self made video clip when in reality, they can't even walk yet.

And, majority of them spend some time soaking in the salty water of Mediterranean Sea or floating in the Dead Sea before they came back gloriously with a PhD and end up teaching us bunch of nutty adolescences accompanied by hundreds of university monkeys nearby. (Actually, I'm just trying to say they got their Permanent Head Damage overseas)

What I was trying to say is that, imagine my surprise when I was wiki-ing some juicy extra details and to my surprise, the description there is like identical to those in my print-outs slide that's so called prepared by my dear lecturer who also never fail to mention that they came back from ....(insert any developed countries)

Either they wrote those entire series of wiki page which is the twin of their notes, or perhaps they're just like us. It would seem okay if only a few of them are the same and the rest are purely original with some grammar mistakes occasionally or simply another different choice of word.

It is not, when you keep re-reading your lecture notes and you can't help but felt that the entire thing felt so freaking familiar. Like, it's something you've read before somewhere else. Oh yeah, I forgot this what was I'd actually got after I wikied/googled it! DUH....

But seriously though, I won't blame them, after all they didn't make the bloody Internet so incredibly convenient didn't they.? They're just following the trend and guess that explains where we, the undergraduates got it from.


Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Bored to hell

I need motivation to read those same identical slides over and over again and force those biological terms into my stubborn brain without directly memorizing them. I suck at memorizing but it doesn't explain why I like Biology more than Chemistry and Physics. Wonders, another score for my weirdness scale. I want to score well for the paper so badly and even though I practically did cover the syllabus I am not confident because I couldn't remember much from it. Another outcome when there's no possible way I could remember every bloody word out of the slide. Only option left is to read it over as much as I can while time still allows it and pray that I can at least recite what does the freaking Scientific name or term means. What I need now is caffeine and sleep which doesn't match and most of all, genuine will power to read those bloody slides and sincerely wished those facts would venture into my brain cells, hopefully.

Am just ranting, not stressed out.


Thursday, April 19, 2007

Pardon me.

After being heavily contaminated with humongous amount of so called facts of how certain particular civilization supersedes another one which is extremely evil and wicked and not forgetting to boast how great they think they are.

Quite interesting in the sense I thought what we're trying to implement here is an equality towards everyone and not by praising someone high up till they reach the sky and can eventually touch the clouds while at the same time conveniently thrushes the enemy or what they labelled as merely another party which is obviously not on the same par with them but definitely not enemy, (They're very noble and the world nicest species that they don't and never make enemies remember.?) to the deepest end of Mariana Trench and of course hopefully and secretly wished that they're crushed out from the earth once and for all and penetrates into the mantle and ABRACADABRA, they vanish from earth. How magnificent.!


I'm utterly satisfied with myself and so damn glad that I have yet to be bias or actually reconsider what those 226 pages had claimed that's obviously trying to brainwash every single undergraduates that's of course one of our famous compulsory nonsense subject.

You see, being a public university undergraduate in our dearest Boleh Land is that you're given the great opportunity to experience certain complete unnecessary rubbish that's claimed to help boost national integration among our beautifully multi racial and of course those zillions of cultures that comes along with it.

But the irony of it is that, these brilliant academics who's also the authors of those pages of rubbish information just enjoy so much thrashing the others while in the same time saying they do accept if its good for them but won't if it isn't. If it was that simple, fine then. But instead they go on and on over hundreds of pages of how negative others are and how positive they are.

Hell, what's the point then if the whole bloody subject involves uplifting yourself while downgrading in what you believe is posing a great threat to you.? Or perhaps the truth was, they're at the same time black listing you just like the way you're doing it to us now.? No wonder they're trying so hard to paint such an ugly picture and practically shoving it in front of our nose so that we won't even dare to missed it!

Amusing as it is, we're treated as undergraduates with three year old mind that will come crawling back to you just because you gave us ice cream or in other words, make us believe and hope that the other half of the world will suddenly wake up from centuries of sleep and decides that you're right, you're the best and by jolly I love you so much I can't wait to die for you.?

Even an actual three year old today won't say ''Oh I'm so stupid you're so clever I want to go with you forever even if I have to die and I won't get to sleep with teddy anymore''. No they won't. Even if you give them ice cream.

So what makes them actually think that these foolishly written stupid facts that was honestly assumed would help us treat our neighbours better or love our enemies more.? I doubt, with such detailed conspiracy theories, I thought everything just seems to be getting worse instead.

I mean, no offence if it does work for certain someone who actually give a damn bout what that book repeatedly boast about or even dare to be discussed deeply, (I forgot they're actually trying to teach us something) but well perhaps it can serve as an entertainment or another subject for you to laze around just to release some stress heh.?

After all, there are plenty of fun facts that raises a number of question marks. Interesting in a way, funny in another way, idiotic in another way. You decide after you've forcefully read it just because you don't have a bloody choice like me, IPTA remember? And it's WAJIB?

Oh ya, one of the ultimate fun fact was it actually said that Japan is one of the Veto powers. Man, bet those Japs love them so damn much. Can't believe I almost forget that. (Yes, I did actually read that bloody book for the sake of my grades, duh.)

I mean, how could I right.? Bless me, just ingested that particular subject and well, it has to be egested right? =))

Saturday, April 14, 2007

What the hell is wrong with me?

I don't need a skin allergic reaction which haunt me whenever they feel like it which is bloody often, giving me unbearable itchiness all over my tan legs not to mention those ugly patches.

I don't need an extremely swollen lips that resembles a pig pouting instead of Angelina Jolie's inch thick sexy lips that seduces you into wanting to kiss it so badly.

I don't need another series of insomnia keeping me wide awake every night yet unable to do anything while waiting for the clock to tick until I finally doze off. It's utterly tormenting and it's like exam week? Perfect.

I don't need to be reminded that I'm dehydrated and you should drink more water and eat more fruits even though I downed at least 3 litres of water daily and I do eat fruits!

I don't need again my lips to be cracking or peeling off which hurts awfully bad and the non existent of lips and facial colour that makes me look like a walking ghost with no traits of blood at all. Yes, I know I'm pale. Thank you.

Sorry. Suffering from exam phobia and is desperately in need of vitamin C and Zyrtec!!! And another extra brain.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Caught blue handed.

Innocence-Avril Lavigne

Waking up I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

What's written in my water bottle.

daisy dance debut decay decor delay demon depth derby digit dingo dirty ditch diver dizzy donor dopey doubt dowse doyen dozen draft drain drake drank drawn dread dream dress dive drill drink droll drool droop drunk dusky dusty dutch duvet dwarf

I'm just plain bored. =/

Friday, April 06, 2007


I would never ever enclose my personal life in front of the class. Nor would I brilliantly chose a topic of presentation that involves my juicy little secrets of the other side of me beside the one I am inside the class.

Not that I'm ashamed of the way I live or that I'm a badass scumbag and hence whatever I do should be a secret and not announce to the whole world. And I am not leading a dark life that cannot be revealed to any ray of lights at all or else would suffer a horrid death, but the fact that such confidentiality's seems inappropriate to be shared to everyone who practically has the ability to hear.

And I find it rather amusing to hear my friends sharing their future family plan for everyone to listen. I wonder what makes them actually wanna tell the whole world that they've decided that at 21, wanna exchange the till-death-do-us-apart vow, or for-richer-or-poorer thingy when they finally turn 26.? Not to mention to have three little monsters and leave them for dear parents in law to clean up their messes of faeces and drooling saliva?

Okay, it's perfectly sane to plan it before hand and stuff, bless you for such a big-heart to throw away freedom at an age so young to start your dream family and so amazingly noble to share it with us. How nice. =.=

What I don't get is why are they dying to get those hypocrite faces of I'm-happy-for-you from every single one who's keen enough to lend their sympathetic ears with pathetic fake eyes expression. And who actually told me you can't fake how your eyes expresses themselves because eyes is the window to your soul? Bite me.


But on the other side, I myself have been keeping a blog for almost three years and all this while, I hardly included anything personal here. Not that I'm suppressing myself, I just simply thought its not right and yes I do not want to throw everything here on the net which is practically equivalent as telling the whole world of what I think.

I guess this is what you get when you're born weird. Mentally of course but not necessarily wrong (weird doesn't mean you're crazy, it means you're different), or perhaps you just grew up to be such an ass and unsurprisingly some narcissism just manage to creep in those odd blue coloured blood.

Can't resist it, simply the world's perfect match of traits from the bottom.


Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Boss' expectation

A butcher watching over his shop is really surprised when he sees a dog coming inside the shop. He shoos him away. But later, the dog is back again.

So, he goes over to the dog and notices it has a note in its mouth. He takes the note and it reads "Can I have 12 sausages and a leg of lamb, please".

The dog has money in its mouth, as well. The butcher looks inside and behold, there is a ten dollar note in there. So he takes the money and puts the sausages and lamb in a bag, placing it in the dog's mouth.

The butcher is so impressed, and since it's about closing time, he decides to shut the shop and follow the dog. So off he goes.

The dog is walking down the street, when it comes to a level crossing; the dog puts down the bag, jumps up and presses the button. Then it waits patiently, bag in mouth, for the lights to turn. When they do, it walks across the road, with the butcher following him all the way.

The dog then comes to a bus stop, and starts looking at the timetable. The butcher is in awe as the dog stops a bus by pulling its left leg up and gets in it. The butcher follows the dog into the bus.

Then the dog shows a ticket which is tied to its belt to the bus conductor. The butcher is nearly fainting at this sight, so are the other passengers in the bus.

The dog then sits near the driver's seat looking outside waiting for the bus stop to come. As soon as the stop is in sight, the dog stands and wags its tail to inform the conductor.

Then, without waiting for the bus to stop completely, it jumps out of the bus and runs to a house very close to the stop.

It opens the big Iron Gate and rushes inside towards the door as it approaches the wooden door, the dog suddenly changes its mind and heads towards the garden. It goes to the window, and beats its head against it several times, walks back, jumps off, and waits at the door.

The butcher watches as a big guy opens the door, and starts abusing the dog, kicking him and punching him, and swearing at him. The butcher surprised with this, runs up, and stops the guy.

"What in heaven's name are you doing? The dog is a genius. He could be on TV, for the life of me!"

To which the guy responds: "You call this clever? This is the second time this week that this stupid dog forgotten his key."

Moral of the story: You may continue to exceed onlooker's expectations but shall always fall short of the boss' expectations. It's dog's life after all.........

Sunday, April 01, 2007

What am I writing?

I was told not to be so cynical. That life ain't that bad actually and putting your hopes or trust on uncertainties could be rewarding sometimes. It is still very beautiful with miracles popping out once a while and every little black spot in your life suddenly vanished. And the only thing you could see was the beauty of such gorgeous occurrence and nothing else matters to your eyes.

I do not deny the hopes and power of what a miracle could have upon those who are fortunate or unfortunately have it inflicted on them. It opens up a new door for you that you have been desperately waiting for ages but unable or simply do not have the courage to unlock it. It also closes the door of darkness and covers up all unpleasant memories where they're then left there and buried with this sudden magnificent luck.

But what I could not turn a blind eye to, was the aftermath of such naive yet very much sought after moments that would one day decide to knock on my stubborn door. I wish I could for once, enjoy the greatness of certain supposedly amazing things, and not just being diverted to the negative effects that would followed after it.

Its nature that everything comes with both sides. The balance of yin and yang.? Is it a blessing or a curse to be able to consider both left and right and not just celebrate all the wonderful things that comes with it and ignored the ugly ones just because you're too busy being happy and forgot there are bad times too.?

But what is so wrong of being happy.? It is not wrong to be such a cynic, misanthropist or pessimist. But it is not wise to chose to be sad when you could be happy. To enjoy the miracle that fate had decided to award you. Life is also balanced out, being happy does not mean you're incapable of recognising or be prepared for the worst expectations. You are not disregarding what that's currently or would be happening tomorrow. You're simply living the best out of yourself while you could.

It is rather sad, quite a pity when you know there are things that are worth to be delighted, to have continuous smile and grins about it, but unable to, because you just couldn't wipe it off even for a short moment. And perhaps, you simply forgot that everything has its dark side, its dirty little secret that's waiting to be unleashed.

Its a never ending line you're walking, its infinite and will never once cease, worst as it would only get longer the more you go. You will never stop pitying the awfully depressed you which is actually a slow suicidal act. And mean time, you're suffering the drifting life of waiting for death that comes afterwards, alone.